People tell you who they are, but we ignore it. Because we want them to be who we want them to be.
I feel as if I’ve been in a very abusive, self destructive long term relationship with myself. Or with depression. Either one.
We fight. A lot. And pretended we don’t. We’ve compromised with bad ideas and bonded over whatever felt wrong or fictional.
Is the only thing I’ve ever really loved myself? And not even myself, but the negative nature of my thoughts. I’ve loved myself for hating myself because that’s how it’s supposed to be. Truly loving me would have been unforgivable. I started to think no one should, so I gave them reason not to.
But I’m all I’ve got, and I could do things for others if I got over myself and moved on. It feels like that’s what’s happening.
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The truth is, people may see things differently but they don’t really want to.
-Don Draper, Mad Men
So, Summer’s officially over with Labor Day weekend. That’s how it works, right? I was thinking about how awesome this one was. I didn’t travel much, but I met so many new, interesting people. Alex Turner of The Arctic Monkeys, and George RR Martin included (although briefly). Some of these people will stay with me, some won’t. Either way the ride was really fun. Then I remembered that last summer I took a cross-country road trip with my best friends. I also get to spend a lot of time reading interesting things, watching stuff on netflix, and hanging out with friends. I found myself wondering what it is I have to be unhappy about.
Of course I could answer that question easily because my mind focuses on negativity. It was nice, though, to have positivity sneak in without any effort on my part. I hope I made it feel welcome.
To anyone feeling nihilistic I propose a grand dose of whatever the fuck you want.